This is one of the nights where I really need to sleep but can't. It feels so sickening. I've got a 8.30am lecture tomorrow and I need to mug for my CAs Thursday. My head is throbbing. I need sleep. But I can't have it.

I am physically exhausted from my canoe polo training earlier on. My body is tired. But my mind seems to be wide awake. I should probably clonk myself with my aluminium MacBook Pro or something. I wonder if I will be energetic enough to mug tomorrow. My mind is in a blank state, no thoughts, nothing and yet, I can't get to sleep. How ironic.

Perhaps this is stage 1 of fatal familial insomnia.

Focus and study!

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Cosmos, the goddess of harmony. Chaos, the god of discord.

Reigning from distant realms, the two gods had gathered warriors from all lands to lead them in savage war.

Cosmos and Chaos were of equal strength. It was believed the conflict would last forever.

But, the balance was broken. Those who answered Chaos's call created an inexhaustible force.

And under vicious attack without relent, the warriors fighting for Cosmos started to fall one by one.

The conflict that has continued for eons is now about to end in Chaos's favor.

The world has been torn asunder, sinking into a vortex of disorder.

As for the few surviving warriors...

I plunged into the abyss and rose back to the surface. The view from on top was pure exhilaration. This will not be the end.

I am rejuvenated.

I just watched The Ugly Truth together with Sher and gang. The show was fabulous, nothing like the typical romance movie that I thought it to be. Instead, it talks about the not-so-pretty truth of a relationship, which I believe some parts to be true. Men are visual creatures by nature and if women wants to attract her crush, then she needs to buy bras which says "Hello and come put me in your mouth". To quote from the movie "Do you really think guys mean it when they say they love your personality and character? What they really mean is I love your tits and your butt." Let us not deny this. We are all attracted to pretty stuff.

I highly recommend this movie to all guys and girls. It gives you a clearer insight to how men behaves and how women should go about in attracting the man of her dreams.

After the movie, Sher asked me if I was afraid of seeking a second relationship. After all, I had put in so much effort in my first and it still ended up in the drain. My answer to her was nope. Sure, I might feel apprehensive about meeting another person but it won't stop me from getting into a new relationship. I don't see the point of burning down the whole forest because of a single tree (I used to think so in the past but soon realized my folly). What has passed will remain history forever. One cannot keep living in the past and wishing that things didn't happen the way they happened. Maybe things were meant to happen that way to prepare you for the future.

So if anyone of you out there has just broke up, don't feel too bad. I know the first few moment of impact might be hard to bear. Don't try to bottle everything up yourself. Find someone to talk to and vent your anguish. Once you feel better, move on. It is obvious that your ex is not worth your time. You should hold your head up high and proudly shout "NEXT BETTER PLAYER PLEASE!"

So people. I am single and available. Any takers? Just leave a message on my tagboard and I will get in touch with you as soon as possible.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. This is so funny.

It is always interesting to see somebody try something which you really want to see but won't do it because of various reasons. Shooting an iPhone with a pistol. Who would have thought of that? This guy really has some serious issues with Apple. And he is good with a gun. Anyway, we can see from this video that the Apple iPhone has the potential to block at least one bullet for you. For the remaining ones you better learn to duck. Maybe Apple needs to create a Bulletproof app to protect its customers. Oh and a Fireproof app too. I am sure those will be most helpful.

After all, there is an App for Everything isn't it?

University life turns out to be more hectic than I expected.

I find myself sleeping at around 1am - 2am everyday in hall and waking up at 8am - 10am for lessons the next day. I cannot explain this phenomenon. Its like some mysterious force distorted my timespace continuity and fast forwarded me to the end of everyday without me knowing it. I know I have free time but I can't seem to utilize them because they seem to be expended instantaneously in the blink of an eye. It's like playing emulated Pokemon games on your PC where you simply fast forward the game to skip all the boring scenes to get to the ending fast. Now I know how Ash felt when I fast-forwarded him last time to get my Mewtwo ASAP.

Either that, or I am having some time management crisis. I should go for a few rounds of Time Crisis to set things in order. LOL.

Though hectic, I still find uni life exciting and full of surprises. For example, eye candies have been coming my way and unlike in the past, I actually had some form of social interaction with them this time round. But sometimes, I really wish they were not my eye candies. But I guess some things can't be rushed. At least now I know NTU has its fair share of attractive people too.

Some ADM student should know that better than I do.

Few tips which every guy should know when they are around girls:

- Do not ask questions which will put her in an awkward position.

E.g.

Man: Hey Jane! We met during FOC. What's up!
Jane: Oh hey hello! Everything's cool!
Man: You don't remember my name do you?
Jane: ...

FAIL!

- Don't act indifferent. Offer to help when opportunity arises.

E.g.

Jane: Shucks, I am 50 cents short.
Man: Don't worry, I got it.
Jane: Is it ok? Thanks!

- Try to remember her name. If you can't, do not let her know you forgot it. Whatever it is, try to recall it ASAP.

- Find the right time to talk. Don't yap away mindlessly.

- Give her due attention when talking to her.

I need to know when to strike! Give me a sign when the iron is hot! If the iron is even going to be ready at all.

Instant noodles (abalone flavor) and coconut don't usually go together but I am having them for supper now. Who cares what goes with what as long as if fills the stomach? If you are not happy, you can go try foie gras with Iron Guanyin tea.

I have been pretty busy with school life recently - actually, I should say I am totally bogged down by it. CAs are coming my way prematurely and I haven't really had the time to revise and digest my stuff. Oh and then I have my hall activities and canoe polo CCA as well. i surely didn't foresee myself in such a predicament 2 months ago. If it was in the past, i would have freaked out and worry myself to death over the lack of time to prepare for my CAs. But now, I am indifferent to it. I didn't even complete my online WebAssignment (that will contribute to my GPA) which I promised myself to. I wonder why am I taking things so easy. Too easily, perhaps.

As I was running through my notes today, I felt that I no longer have the studying capacity as before. It didn't take long for me to get distracted and I ended up doing something other than revision. I used to be able to study from 2pm to 12am. This might sound crazy but I believe I no longer want to study anymore. I want to quit school and go do things which I want to, traveling the world for example. There is no need to get a degree. Actually, as long as you can generate sustainable income to support yourself, you can even forsake your PSLE qualifications. After all, all we need is money to survive in today's world.

Unfortunately, obtaining that pre-requisite is not easy. We are talking about constant income every month for the rest of your life. I am sure there exist people who managed to achieve that feat but for the rest who couldn't, like myself, we will have to follow the social factory line and wait for our turn to get processed.

This is a chore. I wish there is some method for me to bypass the chain.

When movies like Bruno gets too lame and retarded, it is always good to rejuvenate yourself with some hardcore action wham-bam movies. Check out this latest kill-people-and-sell-their-meat-as-food film fresh from Thailand.



That Char Siew Bun I had a few months back was great but I guess it wouldn't hurt to have some noodles for a change.

The first thing I saw on my computer desk when I came home this evening was a letter which I would rather not see at all.



The very first thing that came to my mind was that I would need to cut my hair prematurely so that I could fit a policeman's profile. I was cursing some juicy person in my heart as I picked up the letter reluctantly to unseal it, expecting to receive an edict to serve the nation. Instead, I was greeted with a very pleasant surprise =D



Oh my beloved Division! It touches me so to know that you still remember what I did for you. It is indeed an honour for me. I shall receive this monetary reward with a wide grin!

Now let's see... now I just need $1640.00 more for that messenger bag.

When people learn to move on in life, they learn to let go of all the burdens they carry with them. Its like running uphill in the rain. You feel cold. You feel wet. You feel tired. You feel that your legs are going to break. You want to turn around and run back down, back to square one. Back to the despair that you were subjected to previously. Of course, after awhile, you will want to run uphill again to escape from your misery. You will want to move on. You might fail again. Or you might not.

But what you must know is once you reach the top of the hill, it will be a downhill on the other side. From there on, the journey will be easy. You will be able gain momentum to move on again. And once you are past that stretch, you will be freed from whatever that torments you, tossing it far far behind on the other side of the hill.

Not all can cross the summit in one attempt. But keep this in mind and persevere. You will grow to become stronger.

Who would have thought there is a need to recover from excessive sleep? Not me, at least not until today. I slept 16 hours from Saturday afternoon till Sunday morning and woke up feeling groppy and unwell instead of refreshed and energized. Fortunately, I recovered from it after eating breakfast. I guess I must be dehydrated or something during my sleep. Damn, that is the longest time I ever slept.

I did some revision on Materials Science, which was a killer - I took like 1.5 hours to digest 2 pages of information and am still left with lots more to go. I don't know if its the excessive sleep or my intellectual-drained mind, my head actually throbbed after I did the tutorial. I wondered how many brain cells I terminated. I hope I won't go brain dead anytime soon since this is just the beginning of my school year. Not that I want to be brain dead anytime soon either.

I went downstairs to the mama shop to buy some shampoo for use at my hostel just now and slipped. My reflexes were fast enough to save me from an earth-shaking tumble but not from a chipped toe nail. Yes. My toe nail chipped when I slammed my toe into the concrete to break my fall. AhHhHhHhHhHhHhHh~

Anyway, I thought I would be evil and share the pain.



And I decide to be even more evil by peeling the chipped nail for a better look.



Hohohohoho. I am in the mood for bloody and gory movies again.

Feeling neither here nor there on this melancholy Sunday morning where the threads of time are weaving their way through my mortal existence on this tiny celestial planet. I wish I could grab one of these threads and pull myself in the opposite direction to bring all the monies which I splurged on cellphones and what-nots in the past back to today. But a wish will always be immaterial.

Curiosity kills the cat. This ancient proverb has some ring of truth to it. I am no cat and knowing the truth won't have that adverse an effect of taking my life away but I will prefer to remain ignorant whenever possible because sometimes, the difference between knowing and not knowing is akin to heaven and hell. If I don't know something, I won't care and I won't bother. There will be no hope and there will be no fall. On the contrary, if I know something, that knowledge will haunt me perpetually, eventually forming in me false hopes and assumptions.

I never like being kept in the suspense and having to anticipate what will happen next. Instead, I would rather the results be shown to me directly. That probably explains why I never like to peek my cards during Black Jack. I understand that there are things which one have to face no matter what. I would have no qualms receiving such information. For everything else, as much as possible, I will turn a blind eye to it. What matters others should be of no concern to me.

My parents offered to fetch me to school since its my first day and thank goodness they did, otherwise I would have missed my lectures altogether. I set my alarm to ring at 5.30am but I snoozed it till 7am.

First day of school - HOLLAND like nobody's business. My dad didnt really know how to get to NTU and we went driving around Boon Lay area before I figured out my school is along Jalan Bahar. I think I saw Jurong Camp along the way. Then when I reached school, I can't find my LT and ended up walking around in circles until I somehow managed to find my way, with a little help from Kenenene who skipped the first part of our lecture just to wait for me. We had a 3 hours back to back lecture from 8.30am to 11am, Maths first followed by Materials Science and Physics.

Although school has already started but I am still in holiday mood. Furthermore, I dont really feel that school has started. Somehow, starting my uni education just feels different from when I started my JC and Secondary and Primary education. It feels more... relaxed and easy-going this time round, not as tense as in the past. I guess having a fixed class and time-table which we have to adhere to do make things more uptight in some ways.

As an undergrad, we have the freedom to choose whether or not we want to attend or skip our classes. No rewards from attending them and no penalty for skipping them either. As long as you can pass your semester, it doesn't really matter what you do. No more Mr. Low to push us from behind. I gotta attune myself to the studying mood soon. Perhaps I should start mingling with those PRC scholars. That will definitely help. I KNOW! I will form a study group with them. Ha!

I didn't expect to have an innate power hidden within me until this fateful night. It just awakened suddenly... Behold my ULTIMATE SHARINGAN!

I dragged myself out of bed at 8am this morning to go to the temple with my mama. She wanted me to seek blessings from Guan Yin Ma before school starts tomorrow. We went to the temple at Four Horse Road which we always frequent. It has been quite a long time since I last been there but the place is still same as before, with the exception of a new hotel behind the temple. As usual, there were peddlers selling religious artefacts, joss sticks, flowers etc. to people outside the temple. My mama approached one of the peddlers and asked for a Scholar's Flower and I was like what-flower? The peddler took out a stalk of pink, round flowers and handed it over to my mama.

I was surprised that such flowers actually existed. It sounds more like some sort of in-game item to boost your Intelligence stats or something and the flower really look like some random flower which was coined the Scholar's Flower by some random person. But hey, if it can help to boost my academic results, I am more than happy to pray with it =D

After praying, we went shopping for a little bit. We went to Bugis and then to OG. I felt that today's outing made my mom very happy. To be honest, its been quite some time since I went out with her. Sometimes, spending quality time with your family members is the best present you can give to them.

When was the last time you went out with your mama?

I got a pair of Durian Boosters to enhance and stabilize the performance of my MacBook Pro. It worked surprisingly well! My MacBook didn't experience any technical problems for the whole of today! I am looking forward to even more favorable results in the long run.

I am done setting up my MacBook; copying all my songs and movies and what-nots from my desktop onto it. I faced several compatibility issues along the way, most were minor but it is still irritating to know that some songs just simply refused to play on MacBook, wait no, it should be iTunes just refuse to play some songs. Grrrr. Just because they are in WMA format doesn't mean Apple should ban them altogether. You guys are already using Windows Office on your Leopard OS, so what is wrong with allowing iTunes to play WMA songs? Oh and I might as well add this - having to re-install my OS after I have transferred everything over is really the last thing I need in my entire existence. Please note this Mr. Jobs.

Anyway, I found out how to do a Print Screen on my MacBook and the function works darn well. The screen captured is very clear and there are three modes to choose from. I can choose to print - *got shocked by my mom who appeared suddenly to ask me to go to bed* - a whole screen, a particular window or any part of a screen (like how cropping works). This is definitely one area where a Mac trumps a PC. Since my blog looks bigger on FireFox, I took a print screen of it to show how it actually looks like on Safari:

School is due this Wednesday but I am still as blur as ever on school matters. I really prefer to have everything planned for me and all I need to do is just attend the lessons. Simple. Unfortunately, that is not going to happen. I managed to clear some doubts with my seniors and also discovered the usefulness of my school's intranet, something which I didn't bother to explore until a few hours ago =/ I am relieved to find out that I need only 156 AU to get my degree. First thing tomorrow morning, I am going to the goldsmith to get 156 pieces of gold. I can't believe I will be graduating so soon!

I am indulging myself in a sinful meal of supper... Abalone noodles. What better way to complement my Apple MacBook and Durian Boosters? Ha.

The Prime Ministers from UK and Singapore and the President of USA, were traveling on a warship that was cruising near S.Arabia. The 3 were talking about how brave their soldiers were when their cordial discussion soon turned into an argument where each wanted to prove the bravery of their own soldiers.

The Pres. of USA said, "let me show u what is guts", where upon he called his Colonel and said "Jump into the sea and swim 3 rounds around this ship!".
The Colonel replied "Anything for Uncle Sam, Sir", and jumped into the shark infested sea and swam 3 rounds around the ship, with the sharks chasing him like mad! After the successful 3 rounds, the Colonel came up to the deck and said, "I did it for Uncle Sam Mr. President!". The proud US President replied "That's what I call guts!".

The Prime Minister of UK became aggressive and quickly called his General and said "General, jump into the sea and swim 10 rounds around this ship!".
The General replied "Anything for the Queen, Sir", and jumped into the shark infested sea and swam 10 rounds around the ship, with the sharks chasing him frantically. After the successful 10 rounds the 3-star General came up to the deck and said, "Long Live the Queen!". The proud UK PM replied "That's what I call guts!"

The Prime Minister of Singapore cannot control himself. He had to show that his soldiers have it too. He called one of his Private and said "Soldier, jump into the sea and swim 15 rounds around this ship!" The Private replied "Oi, you siao izzit?" I juz bought my 4-room and I am paying through my nose. Now, U want me to jump and die, eh? If u want to hao lian, you jump into the sea yourself! The Singapore PM smiled and said "Now, that's what I call guts".

I managed to fix my MacBook by re-installing the OS all over again, losing everything that was in it previously along the way. This is so sucky. After this incident, I wonder if I can still rely on my MacBook Pro... At least when a PC crashes, I am still able to salvage my important files but a Mac doesn't even give me a chance to try to!

I think I will quit my Jobs and enter the Gates again.

A Vaio looks pretty too =D